A Day of Thanks

Well, hours, days, weeks, months and even a year has passed since Doug began his incarceration. We have celebrated two Thanksgivings, one Christmas, my grandmother's 100th birthday, my birthday, my brother's first child was born, Doug's 40th birthday, our first anniversary... and now one week from today, My Sweet Doug will be coming home!

I thought I was going to write here all the time over this last year, I've been writing in my head all year, it just hasn't really made it to cyber paper yet, but it will.  My intention when I began this blog was to be positive, to inspire, to heal.  As this last year passed, I realized I was only just beginning my journey and sometimes I've been to some really deep dark places. Sometimes I bounced back quickly and other times it took me a while longer to find my way out. The last time was the worst and I like to think of it as "hitting rock bottom".  I've been working my way up ever since, feeling a bit more hopeful.  During this time, I realized I couldn't really write while I was in the middle of it all... in the thick of it so to speak. I didn't know how to possibly put a positive spin on things when I didn't feel like I had one positive bone in my body. Living life was the last thing on my mind because I was doing my best to just survive it. One day at a time became my motto.  I also realized that my journey wasn't just about loving Doug unconditionally.  For the most part, that has actually been really easy. The hard part has been maintaining my connection with the Divine and loving myself through this experience and through my own process.  This is my true journey.  Some people have said that we cannot truly love another until we truly love ourselves... that may be true. I don't know if I fully agree with that... I think I'd rather say, Loving Doug the way I do, gives me a greater opportunity to love myself with the same depth I love him. To see my own Light, the way I see his. And in turn, this can only make me a better person and to Love, Love, Love. To Speak Love, Do Love, Be Love. The last time I was in a dark space, I kept hearing or seeing these words, whether it was in a movie, on a billboard, or in a book. "Love is the only thing that really matters".  I heard it loud and clear... thank you for the reminder. :)

So, on this day of Celebration of Gratitude, I'm remembering to Love and Be Thankful for my Friends and Family ~ You all have been an integral part of my journey. So, Thank You.  

Love to You and Have a Wonderful Thanksgiving Holiday!

P.S. Designated Drivers Please!