Ahem ~ throat cleared... our deepest fear, that is a loaded question or statement, if you will. I was going to write a few times over the last few weeks, but refrained. Why? Fear. Plain and simple ~ fear. I have been immobilized by fear in many different ways over the last four years. It has shown up in my body, in how I've held my breath, in how I've walked, in how I've held my head, in the clutches of my stomach, and the words I've swallowed, which only lead to giving me an aching sore throat. Words that are waiting, just waiting, to be spoken.
There comes a time in our healing process when we are ready to move forward, to let go of the past and open ourselves to the abundance of... Possibilities. Opportunities. The Blessings that are already on their way ~ we just don't know it yet. This can feel like taking one step forward, two steps back sometimes. Either way we look at it, we're moving. It is a natural ebb and flow to life, once we release the fear that grips us. I don't know about you, but I love going to the beach. I love the ocean, and I'm always in awe of the coming and going of tides. Oh, look how far out the tide is, or oh my, look how far the tide came in, ooohhhh. Neither way is good or bad, it just... is. And it is actually, down right beautiful. I never look at my own life like that, perhaps it's time. It can be so easy sometimes to forget that we are really moving and making headway in our processes, because of our own expectations (and perhaps others') of where we think we should be.
Let it go. Breathe. And if you feel ready, come take a step with me.
If you don't, stay and breathe where you are. Just make sure, you are being called to Stillness (which is an important part of our healing) and not, stagnation from your fear. These are two separate things. The fear that I have experienced over the last few years, prevented me from moving. Literally. I didn't want to move my body, I didn't want to make a sound. I didn't want to be noticed. I thought if I just stayed still, didn't move, didn't breathe or blink an eye ~ that nothing else bad would happen. I created stagnation by my own fear. I became rather lethargic. The fear settled in like a thick fog and I became a prisoner in my own body. My body hurt all over and I felt like I was 85 years old. I decided I was tired of feeling so "stuck" and I started looking for various practitioners to help me on my path to healing. (I'll go into this more later). As I've been releasing this fear ~ I've come to realize, there is another.
This is a deep seeded one. I don't think there is anyone who can't relate to this. And it is always a good reminder, for myself just as much as it is for others, so I thought I'd share. :) These words are great to look upon anytime we need some encouragement and to remember who we truly are.
The following words are from, "A Return to Love" by Mariann Williamson.
Our deepest fear
is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear
is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness,
that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves,
"Who am I to be brilliant?"
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small
doesn't serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened
about shrinking so that other people
won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest
the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us:
it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fears,
our presence automatically liberates others.
~Blessings
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